What It Means To Be Healed

The pervasive conceptualization of healing is rather simplistic and paradoxical to the effect in which humans believe. Relying upon a comprehensive idea of time- compartmentalized to be made linear and definitive- humans qualify the process of healing in respect to these “pasts” to juxtapose our present, and thus future selves.

To man, healing is thus positioned as restoration; yet, by no measure can persons merely return to their “original” state- neither in the spirit or the flesh. For just as the bones undergo fracture, new bone forms to replace and redefine bodily structures, leaving irretrievable what once was. And when plague torments the body, the leukocytes gather for combat, and they, too, die, and are replaced, denoting the repetitive, physiological adaptation through cycles of loss and development, not “restoration”, which is rather absolute.

Comparatively, our emotional, spiritual and mental beings, as an inextricable unit, never retrieve the forms of their prototypes, the pure and unscathed babe that descended from the Heavens. As due to the human sufferance of tribulation, or trauma, with and of itself recurring, one undergoes requisite development, but only through adaptation through cyclic loss, or what is considered, pain. And just like development is dependent upon flexibility, the human ability to adapt is contingent upon a willingness to incur procedural education, correction and an alteration in strategy. For man must yearn to be able to endure the natural pain that life entails, as his feeling, appraisal and response to loss is not obliged to a past-self.

Perhaps, man must hold himself liable for his own endurance- wrestling with purity, in an impure quest to consummate his refinement- and understand there is no return to embodying the unscathed babe. Moreover, he must wrestle with the parameter of his existence in which he both holds and has marginalized intense pain. In essence, man must persist through the never-ending procedure of maturation, an evolutionary process that is not chronologically definitive, nor causation for a conclusive result of being healed.

Human evolution- not advancement, but rather alteration and expansion- produces understandings and experiences that invoke further understanding, and experience, that one must adapt to and through. This cyclic dynamic positions maturation as rather ingenuitive, dialectical and much too unfathomable, invoking inquiry, apprehension and more loss. And it is because of the nuance within maturation that humans must make space for both love and hate, joy and pain, laughter and tears, to lose, to endure, to develop- and when time has concluded, to be healed.

-ZSY